A Child not Rejected

As I laid in bed last night and started falling asleep, or maybe I was even fully asleep and dreamed this, I'm not sure but I remember being on one side of a sliding glass door and knowing God was on the other. When I tried to speak to Him, He could not hear me. When I tried to reach out for Him the door was in my way. These words would appear in fog on the window, some I would even write. The words that appeared would soon be wiped away, but when I tried to wipe away the words I had written they would not disappear. I soon realized it was because those words were the things I was holding on to and did not have the power to release on my own. The words being written on the other side were things God put in my life and erased in His time.

Through all of this there was still the simple problem of the door being between me and God. It was not locked with keys I did not have. It was not a special door only God could open. All I had to do was want for the door to be open and open it. To me it showed me that I am putting obstacles in my own life that are greatly unnecessary. God does hear me. God does forgive me. And God's forgiveness is as simple as Him writing on a glass door and them wiping it clean - gone forever.

Maybe that's an extremely strange scenario or illustration, but I laid in bed and it all made things clear to me in another light. Yesterday I felt like there was much more between God and me than only a glass door. I felt like I was in a brick room with extra thick brick ceilings.

In my devotions this morning (I'm using a book I bought a while ago) I read a verse, Romans 1:28. In context it talks about wicked men who ignored the knowledge of God and lived in full blown sin without care. I was asked what will happen if we ignore the knowledge of God. In this passage it says God gave them to a reprobate mind meaning God rejected them. I did a little research and in Jeremiah 6:30 is tells of men being compared to reprobate silver. When silver cannot be refined it is worthless and rejected. Same thing goes for these wicked men. God saw they rejected Him so to God these men were worthless and were rejected.

Now to me, this is a scary thought -that God would really reject any person. But in my own mind and heart this was not directed towards believers and those who are truly saved. Yes, the saved can backslide from God, but there are many promises in the Bible that clearly state God will not turn His back on His children. We are the ones that turn from Him. He just patiently waits for our return. This does not mean we should not fear Him or that we cannot or will not be judged. It just means that we cannot lose our salvation and will not be rejected from God's family.

So it simply left me with this - I am a child of God and a child of God can never be worthless.