Ok! So it's been a few days since my last post - but I had an amazing weekend with my husband and started to feel the spark of love that I have been praying daily for. Don't get me wrong, I love him to death, but that spark and fire seemed to just be missing for a while now and I miss it. I want to love him with that giddy, energetic love like I used to. Life has handed us so much in the short two years we've been together and we've managed to work our way through it now I just want to find a way to get the "youth" of love back!
Speaking of struggles or trials... so it is always one thing after another. On the way home Rob called me stating that he was going to be late because a tire on the car blew and then when he checked the other side it was just as bad. Ugh. So I knew new tires were in line for the weekend. Money signs started flashing before my eyes. :( With me not working right now while I finish school money stays pretty tight so when things like this happen it bothers me and I start to stress out. Well, Rob got home safe - most important - and we got to spend time together. Saturday after school I stopped to get the mail and when I opened an envelope from our Energy company it was a check for almost three hundred dollars. It said since we had been faithfully paying our bill on time our deposit money (including interest) was given back to us! WHAT A BLESSING! Tires covered!
Sunday, we had our friend over to drop his dog off so I can watch her for a few days while he is out in the field training. We asked him to help us with a part on our fan in the spare bedroom and when Rob walked in he called me in.. he said it smelled musty. Well, we had found a water spot before in the closet from what we thought was water getting out of the tub when we showered, but we resealed everything and changed the curtain to one that stayed against the wall to keep water in - so we thought it had been fixed. Well, when I pulled the tubs away, the carpet was soaked! The floor boards were expanded and ruined by water - stained with mold. :( We called our Realtor and she said that she had placed our home under a home warranty when we signed on with her (she's amazing) and that we could call them. We called immediately and they said it would be covered with our only having to pay a $100 deductible. Within a few hours a man called us and said he could be over in the morning. He came over, cut a hole in the wall, fixed the problem and was gone! Our Realtor called back to check how it was going and also let us know we could come pick up our $100 due diligence check for the contract on our house. Deposit paid for!!! We do have a huge hole to fix now - but still - what a blessing!
Last weekend when I was at Rob's parents house on spring break we were out getting dinner and a man can up to the car asking for food or money because his family was out on the streets and was heading to the dumpster behind the grocery store to look for food. We did not have cash or food and told him so. I saw the lady and her LITTLE kids heading with a cart behind the store. Rob dropped me off to pick up something from the store while he ran across the street to pick up our food. I finished my shopping and had time so I went into the grocery store next to where I was and picked up some apples, bananas, crackers, nuts and water. What is ten dollars worth of food, right? When I went outside Rob had just pulled around, I walked over to where the family was and handed them the bags of food and got back in the vehicle. Rob just smiled because he had said he felt a tug in his heart as well and when he picked up his pizza he ordered extra bread and gave them hot bread. We smiled because our hearts were in tune.
Now I believe in "karma" be it with how the world spins or the spiritual aspect,.. but I do. I'm not sure if we were blessed because we were able to be a blessing or because I've finally started breaking down the barriers between me and God and it was His way of showing that He will provide for His children when we seek Him.... whatever it may have been - I could smile all weekend knowing that we had been truly blessed.
As for my devotions:
Yesterday I read Proverbs 17-18. I simply realized this... there is no one specific topic. It jumps from topic to topic. Talks about children to parents, fathers, grandfathers, wisdom, fools, sinners, spirits,... so many things! It is hard to read a whole chapter at a time, there is SO much to gain from every verse!
One verse that REALLY stood out for some reason though was 17:12 "Let a bear robbed of her whelps meet a man, rather than a fool in his folly." - STRONG statement!!! I could not imagine coming across a bear in the woods, let a lone an angry momma bear! And here we are told that we would be better off meeting an angry mom bear separated from her cubs than be a fool meeting his foolishness/sinner meeting up with his sin. And that is not to say what it would be for the fool to meet the judgment of his folly! Gives great motivation!
Today I read Proverbs 19. It talked a lot about the rich and poor. A verse that stood out to my prior story was that those who give to the poor the Lord will return what was given. Another verse that really stood out to me as more of a promise, and a good one to memorize when times of trials may arise is verse 23:
"The fear of the LORD tendeth to life: and he that hath it shall abide satisfied; he shall not be visited with evil."
Fearing the Lord to me, does not mean to live in fear. Rather it means that we must strive to know Him and His ways. Respect Him. Know His Power but also know His love.
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